Every once in a while God has to remind me to not lose focus. To not lose sight of Him and the things He does in my life daily. Every once in an while He has to remind me that His provision is perfect, not lacking in any shape, form, or fashion, and that to desire more after He's provided is to actually covet. Ever so often God has to remind me that some of the things I want, if he wanted me to have them He would've given them to me. Or if He does have them in store for me He'll provide them in His time. Last night was one of those times. As I was in my bunk heading to sleep I found myself a bit annoyed by some things I desired but wasn't receiving. The things I desired weren't of a financial or monetary nature. Nor were they materialistic. What I was desiring were more privileges here at the prison during our time of quarantine. But here's the thing, this desire didn't stem from me really wanting more privileges, it stemmed from me hearing that others here at the prison might be getting a few extra privileges and me wondering why they should get them and not everybody. Well as soon as the thought crossed my mind conviction entered my spirit and God showed me that I was actively indulging in covetousness and seeing that I can only imagine how ungrateful and unappreciative I must look to my God. Thankfully He sees me through the blood of His Son. Yes I'm confined to my cell for 23½ hours out of the day but in that cell I'm as comfortable as a man can be in prison, I'm joyful, able to praise, not depressed or angry or at my wits end. And most of all I'm healthy and coronavirus free. All of this is God's work, its His provision, His favor. How dare I not be happy and content with it. LET YOUR CONDUCT BE WITHOUT COVETOUSNESS; BE CONTENT WITH SUCH THINGS AS YOU HAVE. FOR HE HIMSELF HAS SAID "I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU." (HEB. 13:5). Today I repent of my actions and stand in agreement with and submission to the scripture. Today I say, Yes Lord! Yes Lord! Yes Lord!
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